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It's just a migraine.
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Honey, until
we're completely sure...
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Is the pain a tight
band or pulsating?
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Good question.
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Pulsating,
light bothers me, nausea.
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I get these
all the time.
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You said you didn't
feel a, uh...
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What'd you
call it? A...
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An aura.
I know, but...
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Exactly how often do
you get these symptoms?
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I just ask,
since your boyfriend
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doesn't seem
to recognize them.
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(CHUCKLES LIGHTLY)
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(BOTH CHUCKLE)
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Zane and I have only known
each other for eight days.
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It moved fast.
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Ellie, did you feel
your foot twitch?
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No.
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Positive Babinski.
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What does
that mean?
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It's not
a migraine.
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Theme music playing...
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*THE GOOD DOCTOR*
Season 04 Episode 05
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Episode Title: "Fault"
Aired on: November 30, 2020
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Synchronized by srjanapala
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DR. REZNICK:
Oh, that.
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I was performing due
diligence on my new roommate,
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who might be
a violent maniac,
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and... look what I found
in his closet.
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It's cute.
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You moved in
with two suitcases.
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You only have
four pairs of underwear.
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How the hell did a parrot
make the cut?
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I'm a Parrothead.
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A Jimmy Buffett
enthusiast.
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The Margaritaville
guy?
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Well, he has other,
far better songs,
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but yes,
the Margaritaville guy.
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It brings me luck.
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Scary to think what your
life would be like without it.
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Can I have it back?
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It's fun getting to
know you better.
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Worth every damn bit
of sacrifice.
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(GROANS, WINCES)
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I was demonstrating a torch
lift this morning, and, bang.
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"Ballet master."
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You're a dancer?
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God, no.
I'm like the CEO.
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At my age,
I'd be the Betty White of the troupe.
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Is she a dancer?
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I don't know much
about, uh, culture.
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(CHUCKLES LIGHTLY)
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I assume I just sprained something,
right?
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Uh, we will need neuro
and abdominal exams,
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X-rays for fractures,
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CBC for infection,
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cultures to rule out
a spinal abscess...
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You're new,
aren't you?
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Uh, it's my
second week here.
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It's actually only my
first day seeing patients.
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Am I your first?
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Yes.
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Sorry.
But, yes.
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Well...
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That's impressive.
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Whoever's supervising you
must really trust you.
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I'm not sure
that's true.
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They won't let me
join their stupid gym
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because I had
high blood pressure.
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How am I supposed to
lower it if I can't work out?
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200 over 105.
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That is quite high.
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I just told you
it was high.
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Are you a smoker?
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Yeah.
Pack or two a day.
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More if I feel crappy.
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And...
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Do you have diabetes?
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You're reading those
questions out of a book?
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Yes. Have you ever
done this before?
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I told you. You
have to trust them.
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I don't.
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Then act
like you do.
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Go away.
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JORDAN: Nothing
more romantic than
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spending one of your
first dates in an ER.
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Well, stressful experiences
release oxytocin.
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Same hormone that
creates emotional bonds.
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This might actually
cement their relationship.
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(COMPUTER BEEPS)
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Next to
the hippocampus.
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Is that a tooth?
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Dermoid cyst.
Cool.
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She's having
a seizure.
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Secure her airway.
Push two milligrams Ativan.
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(ELEVATOR BELL DINGS)
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Thank you for
trusting us enough...
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Please report.
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Uh, 58-year-old male dancer
with back pain.
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I ruled out red flags
like osteomyelitis
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and kidney infection,
but I did find evidence
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of a mild L2 compression
fracture with moderate wedging
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and evidence of impingement
on the neural canal.
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You want to start
beta blockers?
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Me? Yeah. I think my
patient's a stroke risk.
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BP's 200
over 105.
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It was the same
at her gym earlier?
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Can you raise
your arms?
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Okay. Now try to
squeeze my hands.
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I just did all these
tests with her.
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I thought you were gonna give
me stuff to lower my blood pressure.
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That would
kill you.
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Now push
against my hands.
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If she's in danger
of having a stroke...
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She's not.
She's already having one.
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Smoking on estrogen
put her at high risk.
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Loss of circadian blood
pressure variation confirms it.
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Stick out your tongue.
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We gotta get
a CTA.
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No. We're treating
with IV TPA.
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- Don't we need to locate the clot?
- We just did.
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Right deviation means
a right vertebral artery occlusion.
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Oh. You can close
your mouth now.
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CLAIRE: Her seizure and coma
were caused by a dermoid cyst.
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It's a pocket of tissue with bits of teeth,
hair, and fat.
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She likely got it
before she was born.
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What can you do?
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The less invasive
option is to put in a drain
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to release
some pressure,
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treat with anti-seizure
meds and steroids,
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then, basically watch to see
if the swelling goes down.
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And the more invasive?
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Surgical removal.
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But the cyst
is deep inside
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and wrapped around
major arteries,
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so it is more likely
to fix the problem,
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but it carries risk
of stroke or paralysis.
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(SIGHS)
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We need a decision quickly.
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Ellie's sister is
on the paperwork,
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but we haven't been
able to reach her.
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Do you know where
the parents live or any other siblings?
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He might still be on a business trip,
but, uh...
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(SIGHS)
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You can try
her husband.
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If we can't reduce
the swelling,
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she will have
permanent brain damage.
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Is that him?
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Brendan, we need you
to make a decision.
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Yeah, yeah.
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I'm... I'm not sure that
I'm the right one to...
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I mean, right now,
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I hate her.
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You don't.
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You're angry.
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You're hurt.
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Because you love her.
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(INAUDIBLE)
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58-year-old male
dancer with back pain.
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Moderate vertebral wedging and
impingement on the neural canal.
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Yes. I think an L2
compression fracture.
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Prescribe anti-inflammatories,
a brace, and PT,
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then discharge him.
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Do you wanna
re-check anything?
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No.
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(MONITOR BEEPING)
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Remember to floss your brain
after every meal, people.
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CLAIRE:
Aspirating.
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Do you think we
should be doing this?
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I know we have to legally,
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but maybe her husband isn't
the one who knows her best,
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knows what she wants.
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Better than the guy who
met her last weekend.
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Arachnoid knife.
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Mmm, that guy,
she's in love with him. Apparently.
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Well, maybe
she loves them both.
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Aren't you
a romantic!
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Watch for
perforators.
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I've been polyamorous
for years.
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When I was monogamous,
I was jealous, possessive, egotistical.
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Our patient wasn't
honest. That's not cool.
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But other
than that...
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(INHALES DEEPLY)
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Good margins
all around.
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Let's dry up the field
and close her up.
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I never would've guessed
I was your first patient.
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Felt more like
the fourth.
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By the way,
did I detect an accent?
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No.
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I mean, I had one,
but I worked really hard to lose it.
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No one ever
notices it anymore.
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Eastern Europe?
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Brooklyn.
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Williamsburg.
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I grew up Hasidic,
speaking Yiddish.
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I left it
a long time ago.
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You left the...
the religion?
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The religion,
the culture,
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my family.
200
00:09:54,519 --> 00:09:56,867
Must not have been easy,
growing up that way,
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knowing you were
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a doctor.
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00:10:02,922 --> 00:10:04,020
Excuse me?
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00:10:04,285 --> 00:10:06,848
My generation,
you could get bashed.
205
00:10:07,108 --> 00:10:08,653
You could get
thrown in jail.
206
00:10:09,120 --> 00:10:10,454
We had to
learn codes,
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00:10:10,539 --> 00:10:12,223
how to read
each other.
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00:10:12,541 --> 00:10:13,821
You should thank
your lucky stars
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00:10:13,906 --> 00:10:15,832
you get to live your life
the way you want it.
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00:10:19,524 --> 00:10:21,301
I don't know
what you went through.
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00:10:21,516 --> 00:10:24,489
Please don't pretend to
know what I went through.
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00:10:29,382 --> 00:10:30,382
Sir?
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00:10:30,467 --> 00:10:31,467
My gut...
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00:10:31,604 --> 00:10:32,840
(GROANS)
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00:10:38,289 --> 00:10:39,825
Code blue!
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00:10:41,879 --> 00:10:43,684
The surgery
seemed successful,
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00:10:43,806 --> 00:10:47,231
but we need to monitor for
seizures over the next 24 hours.
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00:10:48,177 --> 00:10:49,194
ENRIQUE: Is this
high enough?
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00:10:49,278 --> 00:10:50,813
Um, a little
to the left.
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00:10:51,114 --> 00:10:52,856
- No. To the right.
- Yeah.
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00:10:59,689 --> 00:11:01,376
You never said
anything was wrong.
222
00:11:04,099 --> 00:11:06,702
Can we have the room
for a moment?
223
00:11:06,928 --> 00:11:08,513
I'm sorry,
but we really need to check...
224
00:11:08,597 --> 00:11:10,397
You're worried about
talking in front of them?
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00:11:10,914 --> 00:11:12,275
Embarrassing me?
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00:11:17,406 --> 00:11:19,486
I didn't think
anything was wrong.
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00:11:20,401 --> 00:11:21,536
(SIGHS)
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00:11:21,811 --> 00:11:23,236
When I met Zane,
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00:11:25,114 --> 00:11:27,408
it made me realize
something was missing.
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00:11:30,811 --> 00:11:32,962
Or, at least, I think
that's what I'm feeling.
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00:11:33,047 --> 00:11:34,354
ENRIQUE: You mind
tilting your chin up?
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00:11:34,438 --> 00:11:35,438
ELLIE: I'm sorry.
233
00:11:38,029 --> 00:11:39,915
Why couldn't you
just talk to me?
234
00:11:41,893 --> 00:11:43,970
Or...
Or leave me?
235
00:11:45,600 --> 00:11:46,767
I don't know.
236
00:11:54,609 --> 00:11:55,837
Were you happy?
237
00:11:57,437 --> 00:11:58,642
With him?
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00:12:05,899 --> 00:12:06,970
(SCOFFS)
239
00:12:09,058 --> 00:12:10,462
I guess I should go.
240
00:12:13,397 --> 00:12:14,556
Brendan?
241
00:12:18,168 --> 00:12:19,517
Who are these people?
242
00:12:22,104 --> 00:12:23,728
Ellie, do you know
where you are?
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00:12:23,928 --> 00:12:25,179
Why am I
in the hospital?
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00:12:25,264 --> 00:12:26,673
(BREATHING SHAKILY)
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00:12:33,893 --> 00:12:36,549
SHAUN: Suprarenal
aortic aneurysm.
246
00:12:36,634 --> 00:12:38,933
It ruptured as he
was being discharged.
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00:12:39,018 --> 00:12:40,393
Clamping aorta now.
248
00:12:40,478 --> 00:12:41,488
How much blood
is he down?
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00:12:41,619 --> 00:12:43,009
We suctioned out
two liters
250
00:12:43,094 --> 00:12:45,408
and gave six units
on the rapid infuser.
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00:12:45,615 --> 00:12:47,617
SHAUN: The aneurysm
caused his back pain.
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00:12:47,841 --> 00:12:49,533
Dr. Wolke
missed it.
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00:12:51,173 --> 00:12:52,593
I did
an abdominal exam.
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00:12:52,678 --> 00:12:54,546
Aneurysms are
very hard to catch.
255
00:12:54,631 --> 00:12:56,400
Experienced doctors
miss them all the time.
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00:12:56,485 --> 00:12:58,619
- Potts scissors.
- The aneurysm
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00:12:58,704 --> 00:13:01,095
is 6.5 centimeters.
258
00:13:01,621 --> 00:13:03,798
Dr. Wolke
should have felt it.
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00:13:06,317 --> 00:13:09,556
It felt like
normal musculature.
260
00:13:09,641 --> 00:13:10,697
I'm so sorry.
261
00:13:10,782 --> 00:13:12,350
We'll never know
what you felt.
262
00:13:12,510 --> 00:13:15,205
There's no way to know if you,
or any doctor, for that matter,
263
00:13:15,290 --> 00:13:16,806
would have
detected this.
264
00:13:17,583 --> 00:13:18,978
I would have.
265
00:13:19,476 --> 00:13:21,845
He asked me
if I wanted to double-check.
266
00:13:21,930 --> 00:13:24,596
If I had, I would've caught the
aneurysm before the rupture.
267
00:13:24,681 --> 00:13:25,830
Stop it.
268
00:13:29,047 --> 00:13:30,720
He made a mistake.
269
00:13:30,835 --> 00:13:32,283
He might have.
270
00:13:32,368 --> 00:13:33,537
But you did, too.
271
00:13:33,622 --> 00:13:36,057
No. You told me
to back off.
272
00:13:36,142 --> 00:13:38,501
I didn't tell you to
abdicate responsibility.
273
00:13:43,747 --> 00:13:46,955
When a First Year asks if
you want to re-check their work,
274
00:13:47,040 --> 00:13:49,501
your answer should
always be "yes."
275
00:13:51,663 --> 00:13:54,283
The fact they're
asking is a warning sign.
276
00:13:57,561 --> 00:13:59,322
I didn't know that.
277
00:14:07,769 --> 00:14:09,751
It's called retrograde
memory loss.
278
00:14:09,836 --> 00:14:11,590
Luckily,
it seems to have been temporary.
279
00:14:11,675 --> 00:14:12,908
She's lucid again.
280
00:14:13,845 --> 00:14:16,742
We're running an
MRI and lab tests
281
00:14:16,827 --> 00:14:18,165
to see
what caused it.
282
00:14:18,250 --> 00:14:21,119
Thank you for, uh,
telling me. I know I'm just the...
283
00:14:22,473 --> 00:14:23,830
You care.
284
00:14:26,350 --> 00:14:30,299
Maybe things with Ellie and I
weren't always perfect, but...
285
00:14:30,384 --> 00:14:31,681
It was exciting.
286
00:14:33,220 --> 00:14:34,548
When I was
with her...
287
00:14:36,026 --> 00:14:37,728
Never felt
that way before.
288
00:14:37,813 --> 00:14:39,970
I took care of her
when she was sick.
289
00:14:40,423 --> 00:14:41,612
I never strayed.
290
00:14:41,697 --> 00:14:43,299
It wasn't about
the things we did.
291
00:14:43,384 --> 00:14:44,884
It was...
It was about
292
00:14:46,359 --> 00:14:47,540
being with her.
293
00:14:50,135 --> 00:14:52,494
She stuck by me
when I needed her.
294
00:14:53,632 --> 00:14:56,775
Last year,
I was... I was drinking way too much.
295
00:15:01,454 --> 00:15:03,322
It's hard to imagine
being without her.
296
00:15:04,076 --> 00:15:05,908
I just can't imagine
being without her.
297
00:15:14,056 --> 00:15:15,117
She's stable.
298
00:15:15,202 --> 00:15:18,087
Q-hour neuro exams and
monitor for signs of elevated ICP.
299
00:15:18,548 --> 00:15:19,894
"Margaritaville"
ringtone playing...
300
00:15:19,978 --> 00:15:24,119
♪♪ Wastin' away again
in Margaritaville
301
00:15:24,204 --> 00:15:26,607
I believe you're getting a call,
Dr. Park.
302
00:15:27,118 --> 00:15:30,650
♪♪ Searchin' for my
lost shaker of salt ♪♪
303
00:15:30,955 --> 00:15:33,540
(DECLINES CALL) You're
a Parrothead. Wear it proud.
304
00:15:35,306 --> 00:15:36,892
Can we just agree
to have some limits?
305
00:15:36,977 --> 00:15:39,314
Maybe not everything
I own is fair game.
306
00:15:39,399 --> 00:15:40,939
Mmm, no.
307
00:15:41,024 --> 00:15:42,095
Perfect.
308
00:15:42,212 --> 00:15:44,970
Trust me, it'll be worth
every damn bit of sacrifice.
309
00:15:48,304 --> 00:15:49,973
I've said that
twice now.
310
00:15:50,058 --> 00:15:50,926
You've said a lot
of things twice.
311
00:15:51,011 --> 00:15:52,062
You have
limited creativity.
312
00:15:52,146 --> 00:15:53,331
Truth is, it wasn't
creative at all.
313
00:15:53,415 --> 00:15:55,201
It's from Jimmy Buffett's
Cheeseburger In Paradise,
314
00:15:55,285 --> 00:15:57,690
one of his Big 8. So big,
even I know it.
315
00:15:57,775 --> 00:16:00,314
You, sir,
are no Parrothead.
316
00:16:02,985 --> 00:16:04,479
Mia does woodwork
as a side hustle.
317
00:16:04,564 --> 00:16:06,417
She made it for me on
our first trip to Hawaii.
318
00:16:06,501 --> 00:16:08,634
Lovely. Wait, no,
that's not right.
319
00:16:08,772 --> 00:16:10,448
- "Pathetic"?
- And do you toss away
320
00:16:10,533 --> 00:16:12,165
all mementos
of past friends and jobs?
321
00:16:12,250 --> 00:16:14,580
If a job cheated on me,
I might wanna move on.
322
00:16:15,451 --> 00:16:16,837
When's the last time
you dated someone?
323
00:16:16,921 --> 00:16:18,862
When's the last time you
acted like a human being?
324
00:16:18,946 --> 00:16:20,540
So, years?
325
00:16:20,625 --> 00:16:22,995
Yeah, I definitely
found the right word.
326
00:16:23,329 --> 00:16:24,517
See you at home.
327
00:16:32,492 --> 00:16:33,976
You can't sleep?
328
00:16:34,768 --> 00:16:36,781
You want some
warm milk?
329
00:16:37,139 --> 00:16:39,558
My mother has, like,
18 prescriptions for this.
330
00:16:39,643 --> 00:16:42,343
Some of them are
actual prescriptions.
331
00:16:42,439 --> 00:16:43,749
I can sleep
332
00:16:43,834 --> 00:16:46,218
but need to figure out
how to supervise better.
333
00:16:47,034 --> 00:16:49,359
How many of these are
you planning to read tonight?
334
00:16:49,641 --> 00:16:51,878
Just the relevant
sections of each.
335
00:16:52,011 --> 00:16:55,218
Tech bros are always watching
TED Talks on leadership.
336
00:16:55,303 --> 00:16:57,156
That could be quicker
than those books.
337
00:17:01,075 --> 00:17:04,132
How about tomorrow,
we have a date night?
338
00:17:04,356 --> 00:17:07,459
Why would we need
a date night
339
00:17:07,593 --> 00:17:09,728
if we're in a relationship
and living together?
340
00:17:09,862 --> 00:17:11,765
Because it'll be fun.
341
00:17:11,850 --> 00:17:13,907
I'll schedule date night
for tomorrow.
342
00:17:13,992 --> 00:17:16,554
Great. Think of
something for us to do.
343
00:17:19,318 --> 00:17:22,123
There is one thing that
helps most people sleep
344
00:17:22,208 --> 00:17:24,789
that my mother
did not tell me about.
345
00:17:26,941 --> 00:17:27,941
(TYPING)
346
00:17:29,565 --> 00:17:31,938
What makes
a great manager?
347
00:17:32,023 --> 00:17:34,353
Some say it's all
about planning.
348
00:17:34,486 --> 00:17:36,923
Others,
charismatic leadership.
349
00:17:37,056 --> 00:17:38,366
A third group...
350
00:17:40,095 --> 00:17:42,765
Your temporary memory
loss was caused by some fat
351
00:17:42,952 --> 00:17:44,586
that leaked
from your cyst.
352
00:17:44,671 --> 00:17:46,741
We can remove it
via a craniotomy,
353
00:17:46,833 --> 00:17:50,120
but there is a real risk
of more memory loss.
354
00:17:50,205 --> 00:17:51,406
Maybe
permanently.
355
00:17:52,842 --> 00:17:54,343
What will I lose?
356
00:17:54,540 --> 00:17:56,427
The time prior
to the surgery.
357
00:17:56,512 --> 00:17:58,849
Days, weeks,
possibly months.
358
00:17:59,345 --> 00:18:00,762
But if we don't
operate soon,
359
00:18:00,847 --> 00:18:02,669
the risk of brain
damage only grows.
360
00:18:03,239 --> 00:18:04,766
(BREATHING SHAKILY)
361
00:18:05,139 --> 00:18:06,466
I can't do it.
362
00:18:11,876 --> 00:18:14,247
I don't even know
what I want right now,
363
00:18:14,374 --> 00:18:18,068
but I do know that I don't want
the decision about my marriage
364
00:18:18,160 --> 00:18:20,036
forced on me
by an operation.
365
00:18:23,836 --> 00:18:24,836
Please,
366
00:18:25,545 --> 00:18:27,388
find another answer.
367
00:18:37,086 --> 00:18:39,075
You are not very
good at your jobs,
368
00:18:39,160 --> 00:18:40,576
and I'm not very
good at teaching you,
369
00:18:40,660 --> 00:18:43,230
so we are going to focus
on one step at a time.
370
00:18:43,315 --> 00:18:45,428
You will master
each skill separately.
371
00:18:45,513 --> 00:18:47,270
I've made a list
of 400 skills.
372
00:18:47,355 --> 00:18:50,036
I didn't have the time to
finish it last night because...
373
00:18:50,989 --> 00:18:53,792
Dr. Wolke,
you will be focusing on physical exams.
374
00:18:53,877 --> 00:18:56,618
You'll find a list of the seven
post-op tests to be conducted on Carl.
375
00:18:56,702 --> 00:18:58,732
Dr. Jackson,
you will find relevant seminars
376
00:18:58,817 --> 00:19:00,670
on conquering nerves
in the workplace.
377
00:19:00,762 --> 00:19:02,669
What are good
activities for a date?
378
00:19:02,754 --> 00:19:03,893
Uh...
379
00:19:03,978 --> 00:19:05,129
What does
she like?
380
00:19:05,222 --> 00:19:06,615
- Cars, coding,
- Zelda: Breath of the Wild,
381
00:19:06,699 --> 00:19:11,434
Sauvignon Blanc, Skittles,
RuPaul's Drag Race, camping...
382
00:19:11,590 --> 00:19:14,114
I had a very romantic
time camping in Big Sur.
383
00:19:14,199 --> 00:19:15,536
This is for tonight.
384
00:19:18,157 --> 00:19:19,833
I haven't gone
on many dates.
385
00:19:22,973 --> 00:19:25,208
- But everyone loves movies.
- Hmm.
386
00:19:38,200 --> 00:19:39,645
Healing nicely.
387
00:19:39,730 --> 00:19:42,106
No redness or swelling.
388
00:19:42,591 --> 00:19:44,864
I'm gonna palpate
around it now.
389
00:19:45,817 --> 00:19:47,052
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
390
00:19:49,064 --> 00:19:51,075
Look,
I need to apologize.
391
00:19:51,277 --> 00:19:54,130
For bringing up your
personal life the other day.
392
00:19:57,029 --> 00:19:58,497
No.
393
00:19:58,727 --> 00:20:01,169
You have nothing to
apologize to me for.
394
00:20:03,669 --> 00:20:06,739
So, what's next
on your list?
395
00:20:07,208 --> 00:20:11,161
Checking for signs of
infection inside your abdomen.
396
00:20:13,264 --> 00:20:14,692
Open your eyes
wider.
397
00:20:20,368 --> 00:20:21,645
You have signs
of jaundice.
398
00:20:23,577 --> 00:20:25,161
I think
your liver's failing.
399
00:20:26,058 --> 00:20:27,058
(SIGHS)
400
00:20:30,645 --> 00:20:33,005
SHAUN: The liver is being
damaged by a new aneurysm.
401
00:20:33,188 --> 00:20:35,466
How? A genetic
predisposition or...
402
00:20:35,551 --> 00:20:37,552
More likely,
when we fixed the first one,
403
00:20:37,637 --> 00:20:39,755
we increased the
pressure upstream.
404
00:20:40,069 --> 00:20:41,604
Can we stent
the celiac?
405
00:20:41,743 --> 00:20:43,114
Anatomy's
too tricky.
406
00:20:44,379 --> 00:20:45,864
Aortic to
celiac bypass?
407
00:20:45,949 --> 00:20:48,685
We'd just risk a new
aneurysm forming upstream.
408
00:20:48,770 --> 00:20:50,941
Maybe,
but it solves the problem in front of us.
409
00:20:51,026 --> 00:20:52,450
He'll die without
an intervention.
410
00:20:52,535 --> 00:20:54,942
He'll probably die
either way.
411
00:20:59,325 --> 00:21:02,536
Let's all take the time to
research alternate solutions.
412
00:21:02,637 --> 00:21:06,160
If we can't come up with
something better in 24 hours,
413
00:21:06,245 --> 00:21:07,950
we proceed
with the bypass.
414
00:21:24,517 --> 00:21:27,638
She's saying no
for emotional reasons.
415
00:21:29,255 --> 00:21:31,242
So the answer
isn't medical.
416
00:21:31,375 --> 00:21:32,599
It's emotional.
417
00:21:36,548 --> 00:21:39,717
We think Zane
should talk to Ellie.
418
00:21:39,802 --> 00:21:40,834
No.
419
00:21:40,919 --> 00:21:42,411
I don't want him
anywhere near her.
420
00:21:42,496 --> 00:21:45,474
To convince her to
do the craniotomy.
421
00:21:47,435 --> 00:21:49,200
From you,
it's self-serving.
422
00:21:49,639 --> 00:21:50,856
From Zane...
423
00:21:52,329 --> 00:21:53,665
Wait. If she doesn't
want it...
424
00:21:53,798 --> 00:21:56,606
You said you can't
imagine life without her.
425
00:21:57,954 --> 00:22:00,989
If you meant that,
you'd risk anything to keep her alive.
426
00:22:01,939 --> 00:22:03,724
Including her memories of you.
427
00:22:16,300 --> 00:22:17,466
(CHUCKLES)
428
00:22:17,729 --> 00:22:20,839
Well done, Shaunie.
429
00:22:20,924 --> 00:22:22,221
(SIGHS)
430
00:22:23,805 --> 00:22:25,807
I really
needed this.
431
00:22:25,963 --> 00:22:27,736
The system update
yesterday?
432
00:22:27,869 --> 00:22:29,533
Went bananas.
433
00:22:29,667 --> 00:22:31,361
I've been flooded
with complaints.
434
00:22:31,736 --> 00:22:33,221
Total nightmare.
435
00:22:34,276 --> 00:22:36,544
How's work?
Did the videos help?
436
00:22:36,629 --> 00:22:37,814
Yes.
437
00:22:40,377 --> 00:22:41,588
Tell me more.
438
00:22:42,813 --> 00:22:46,464
One of my patients developed
a secondary aneurysm.
439
00:22:46,549 --> 00:22:48,917
Now I need to find a
surgical fix by tomorrow.
440
00:22:49,002 --> 00:22:50,780
Otherwise,
he will probably die.
441
00:22:50,865 --> 00:22:52,300
I brought Skittles.
442
00:22:55,026 --> 00:22:56,862
Shouldn't you be
at the hospital?
443
00:22:56,947 --> 00:22:59,179
Yes. After you
go to bed,
444
00:22:59,264 --> 00:23:01,666
I plan to go back
and do research.
445
00:23:02,199 --> 00:23:05,167
Shaunie,
go to the hospital.
446
00:23:05,252 --> 00:23:07,791
No, we made
this schedule.
447
00:23:09,073 --> 00:23:10,744
Someone else needs you.
448
00:23:11,475 --> 00:23:13,183
More than I need you.
449
00:23:13,268 --> 00:23:15,432
It's a hospital.
450
00:23:15,517 --> 00:23:17,129
It's filled
with sick people.
451
00:23:17,214 --> 00:23:19,908
But tomorrow,
will someone need you
452
00:23:19,993 --> 00:23:21,808
to come up with a way
to save their life?
453
00:23:21,978 --> 00:23:23,979
Mmm, maybe.
454
00:23:26,758 --> 00:23:29,416
Probably
not tomorrow.
455
00:23:31,609 --> 00:23:32,846
Okay.
456
00:23:34,365 --> 00:23:35,814
Mmm-hmm.
457
00:23:37,902 --> 00:23:39,299
(SIGHS)
458
00:23:39,879 --> 00:23:43,697
I am canceling
date night.
459
00:23:43,975 --> 00:23:45,108
That's rude.
460
00:23:45,193 --> 00:23:46,338
Oh, well.
461
00:23:54,761 --> 00:23:55,762
Then
462
00:23:56,776 --> 00:23:58,033
I should
463
00:23:59,181 --> 00:24:00,838
go to the hospital.
464
00:24:01,059 --> 00:24:02,059
Mmm-hmm.
465
00:24:10,904 --> 00:24:12,518
They're prepping Ellie
for surgery.
466
00:24:13,304 --> 00:24:14,916
Any last-minute
questions?
467
00:24:18,508 --> 00:24:19,814
What should I do?
468
00:24:23,206 --> 00:24:24,206
Forgive her.
469
00:24:25,115 --> 00:24:27,918
Under the right circumstances,
every human will stray.
470
00:24:28,260 --> 00:24:30,213
We're not hardwired
for monogamy.
471
00:24:31,364 --> 00:24:32,908
I'm guessing
you're not married.
472
00:24:33,414 --> 00:24:35,791
I'm not saying that
it's wrong to feel angry.
473
00:24:36,393 --> 00:24:37,893
She wasn't honest
with you.
474
00:24:40,242 --> 00:24:42,081
The alternative
to forgiving her
475
00:24:42,189 --> 00:24:43,854
is losing someone
that you love.
476
00:24:47,959 --> 00:24:49,158
Then what?
477
00:24:51,560 --> 00:24:54,221
If she comes back to me
just because she forgets him,
478
00:24:54,645 --> 00:24:55,947
(BREATHES DEEPLY)
479
00:24:56,964 --> 00:24:58,666
My marriage
wouldn't be honest.
480
00:25:06,228 --> 00:25:07,486
I have an idea.
481
00:25:09,644 --> 00:25:12,542
We could remove
more proximal aorta
482
00:25:12,627 --> 00:25:13,973
and extend
the graft.
483
00:25:14,143 --> 00:25:17,064
And rebuild the
celiac trunk with what?
484
00:25:17,201 --> 00:25:18,446
Dacron?
485
00:25:18,531 --> 00:25:20,291
Branches are
too complex.
486
00:25:21,115 --> 00:25:24,229
This Lancet article
on polymer materials
487
00:25:24,341 --> 00:25:25,638
doesn't work.
488
00:25:25,723 --> 00:25:28,252
But thin-film nitinol?
489
00:25:37,454 --> 00:25:38,932
(WHISPERING)
Did we break him?
490
00:25:43,879 --> 00:25:47,143
We have
the material.
491
00:25:50,346 --> 00:25:51,854
It's his veins.
492
00:26:00,057 --> 00:26:02,033
- Hey!
- Oh, I'm sorry.
493
00:26:02,189 --> 00:26:04,157
Did we reestablish
personal boundaries?
494
00:26:04,653 --> 00:26:09,072
This morning's presentation's
on who's not moving on?
495
00:26:09,716 --> 00:26:11,184
Exhibit A.
496
00:26:11,279 --> 00:26:13,869
Canoodling on a very
romantic hillside with...
497
00:26:13,954 --> 00:26:16,166
With my gay best friend.
Can you leave?
498
00:26:16,812 --> 00:26:18,166
Exhibit B.
499
00:26:18,927 --> 00:26:22,018
A XXL
Rob Gronkowski Jersey.
500
00:26:22,342 --> 00:26:24,019
Just the latest
fashion style
501
00:26:24,104 --> 00:26:25,448
from a woman
who hates the Patriots?
502
00:26:25,532 --> 00:26:26,628
Or an
ex-boyfriend's...
503
00:26:26,713 --> 00:26:28,437
Not an ex. I hooked
up with Gronk.
504
00:26:28,522 --> 00:26:29,843
Seemed worth preserving.
505
00:26:32,808 --> 00:26:34,710
Rob? Or one of
his brothers?
506
00:26:36,162 --> 00:26:37,585
Props. I guess.
507
00:26:37,680 --> 00:26:39,804
Exhibit infinitum.
508
00:26:40,113 --> 00:26:42,015
Two ticket stubs to
Quantum of Solace.
509
00:26:42,100 --> 00:26:44,703
Now, you once called
Daniel Craig "James Blonde,"
510
00:26:44,799 --> 00:26:47,140
and yet, 11 years later,
these were in your drawer,
511
00:26:47,322 --> 00:26:50,585
on top of an instruction
manual for a 2019 cellphone,
512
00:26:50,670 --> 00:26:52,958
which means you dug
them out within the last year.
513
00:26:53,077 --> 00:26:55,063
Why? I can only assume
you are currently
514
00:26:55,197 --> 00:26:57,208
once again hooking up
with the James Blonde fan.
515
00:26:57,554 --> 00:26:59,185
How could you
possible deduce...
516
00:26:59,270 --> 00:27:00,802
I also read
your e-mails.
517
00:27:01,512 --> 00:27:02,998
You've been sleeping
with an ex
518
00:27:03,083 --> 00:27:04,217
without asking
for any commitment.
519
00:27:04,301 --> 00:27:06,310
It's just sex.
It's not keeping me from anything.
520
00:27:06,395 --> 00:27:08,630
What's more likely to prevent
someone from moving on?
521
00:27:08,715 --> 00:27:11,568
A parrot in a drawer
or an ex in your bed?
522
00:27:11,669 --> 00:27:14,182
I'm at least getting something
hot from the situation.
523
00:27:14,316 --> 00:27:15,990
You're just wallowing
in failure.
524
00:27:19,412 --> 00:27:21,046
So, if your bag's empty,
525
00:27:21,131 --> 00:27:23,154
I'm naked and have
to go to the bathroom.
526
00:27:31,643 --> 00:27:33,379
It's called a
Y-shaped vein graft.
527
00:27:33,464 --> 00:27:35,593
Your aorta is damaged
from the aneurysm
528
00:27:35,686 --> 00:27:36,757
right where
it branches off.
529
00:27:36,841 --> 00:27:39,744
We're gonna find a vein in
your leg that's similar in size,
530
00:27:39,844 --> 00:27:43,181
cut it out, and use it to replace
the damaged artery.
531
00:27:43,266 --> 00:27:44,583
How bad is it?
532
00:27:44,777 --> 00:27:46,419
This is
an excellent solution.
533
00:27:46,504 --> 00:27:47,904
If it works.
534
00:27:48,594 --> 00:27:51,052
What are the actual
chances that it doesn't,
535
00:27:51,609 --> 00:27:53,216
that I'm gonna die?
536
00:27:53,652 --> 00:27:55,026
I don't want
to give a number.
537
00:27:55,111 --> 00:27:56,112
(EXHALES)
538
00:27:56,660 --> 00:27:58,146
I mean, I can't.
539
00:27:59,419 --> 00:28:01,387
I literally can't.
There are too many factors.
540
00:28:01,472 --> 00:28:02,800
I can call in
Dr. Murphy...
541
00:28:02,885 --> 00:28:04,583
I don't need
to hear numbers.
542
00:28:04,733 --> 00:28:06,662
How bad is this?
543
00:28:12,860 --> 00:28:14,013
Bad.
544
00:28:16,745 --> 00:28:17,746
(EXHALES SHARPLY)
545
00:28:20,073 --> 00:28:21,404
Thank you.
546
00:28:26,192 --> 00:28:29,310
Whatever happens,
you're gonna be an incredible doctor.
547
00:28:30,395 --> 00:28:33,357
And I am honored to
have been your first patient.
548
00:28:41,185 --> 00:28:42,490
I screwed up.
549
00:28:44,657 --> 00:28:46,459
(BREATH TREMBLING)
That first exam,
550
00:28:47,543 --> 00:28:48,935
I felt something.
551
00:28:51,389 --> 00:28:53,943
I should have known
it was an aneurysm.
552
00:28:54,945 --> 00:28:57,287
We could have saved you
before it got bad.
553
00:28:59,570 --> 00:29:00,919
Why...
554
00:29:03,759 --> 00:29:05,568
You were
my first patient.
555
00:29:07,201 --> 00:29:08,646
(SIGHS)
556
00:29:12,935 --> 00:29:15,083
I need you to do
something for me.
557
00:29:16,650 --> 00:29:18,005
I need you to pray.
558
00:29:20,256 --> 00:29:22,302
You must know
a prayer for the sick.
559
00:29:25,598 --> 00:29:27,357
I'm not a believer
anymore.
560
00:29:27,850 --> 00:29:29,373
Neither am I.
561
00:29:30,477 --> 00:29:31,779
But...
562
00:29:32,420 --> 00:29:34,076
(SIGHS)
563
00:29:50,833 --> 00:29:52,404
Praying in yiddish...
564
00:30:14,797 --> 00:30:16,288
(MONITOR BEEPING)
565
00:30:25,865 --> 00:30:28,358
Ellie,
do you know these men?
566
00:30:29,077 --> 00:30:30,296
Of course.
567
00:30:30,445 --> 00:30:31,617
Brendan.
568
00:30:34,286 --> 00:30:35,531
And...
569
00:30:38,286 --> 00:30:40,663
And are you a
friend of Brendan's?
570
00:30:40,823 --> 00:30:42,148
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)
571
00:30:42,891 --> 00:30:44,226
Something like that.
572
00:31:00,349 --> 00:31:02,257
A lot has happened
in the last week.
573
00:31:04,126 --> 00:31:08,327
So before you went under,
the doctors made a video.
574
00:31:09,806 --> 00:31:12,617
It's sort of,
uh, a message
575
00:31:12,755 --> 00:31:14,492
from your old self
to your new one.
576
00:31:15,057 --> 00:31:16,281
(CHUCKLES)
577
00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:19,140
Um...
578
00:31:23,593 --> 00:31:25,312
I just want you
to know
579
00:31:26,662 --> 00:31:28,140
that I love you.
580
00:31:46,739 --> 00:31:48,360
ENRIQUE ON PHONE:
Tell me about the day you met.
581
00:31:48,444 --> 00:31:50,187
(CHUCKLES)
582
00:31:50,973 --> 00:31:54,968
I was in the middle of
an art exhibit in SoMa,
583
00:31:55,053 --> 00:31:59,434
and... I noticed this guy,
and he was
584
00:31:59,567 --> 00:32:03,413
looking at all the same
paintings I had been looking at.
585
00:32:03,856 --> 00:32:07,085
DR. LIM: Need another 6-0 loaded
backhand for the arterial stump.
586
00:32:07,843 --> 00:32:09,445
(MONITOR BEEPING STEADILY)
587
00:32:10,913 --> 00:32:12,062
Graft is secure.
588
00:32:12,147 --> 00:32:13,937
Take off
the Satinsky clamp.
589
00:32:20,222 --> 00:32:22,320
Good perfusion
to his lower body.
590
00:32:22,405 --> 00:32:24,812
- (ALARM BEEPING)
- JORDAN: Heart rate's spiking.
591
00:32:25,093 --> 00:32:28,351
There's no
ST elevations.
592
00:32:28,964 --> 00:32:30,833
(MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY)
593
00:32:30,966 --> 00:32:33,382
BP's tanking. Did he
thrombose the graft?
594
00:32:35,629 --> 00:32:38,298
Distal anastomosis
is pulsatile.
595
00:32:38,571 --> 00:32:42,492
But there is blood pooling
in the left lower quadrant.
596
00:32:42,577 --> 00:32:43,851
The right, too.
597
00:32:45,404 --> 00:32:47,710
He's bleeding
everywhere but the graft.
598
00:32:48,629 --> 00:32:49,897
ASHER: It's DIC.
599
00:32:49,982 --> 00:32:51,342
Send a stat ROTEM
and coag profile...
600
00:32:51,426 --> 00:32:53,132
(ALARM BLARING)
601
00:32:53,599 --> 00:32:56,445
Start compression,
give epinephrine, and get the defib.
602
00:33:04,945 --> 00:33:06,735
Set it to 120.
120.
603
00:33:06,820 --> 00:33:08,168
(DEFIBRILLATOR WHIRS)
Clear.
604
00:33:08,253 --> 00:33:09,386
(DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS)
605
00:33:09,471 --> 00:33:10,812
Compressions.
606
00:33:11,006 --> 00:33:12,499
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
607
00:33:14,316 --> 00:33:15,835
No response.
608
00:33:17,474 --> 00:33:19,984
Go to monophasic
at 360.
609
00:33:20,082 --> 00:33:22,257
(DEFIBRILLATOR WHIRS)
Clear.
610
00:33:22,951 --> 00:33:24,624
(DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS)
611
00:33:27,655 --> 00:33:29,554
(EKG FLATLINING)
612
00:33:32,507 --> 00:33:33,507
(FLATLINE CONTINUES)
613
00:33:37,628 --> 00:33:39,351
Why aren't you
shocking again?
614
00:33:39,831 --> 00:33:42,148
He's in asystole.
615
00:33:43,922 --> 00:33:45,608
Dr. Lim?
616
00:33:49,716 --> 00:33:51,179
(DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS)
617
00:33:51,814 --> 00:33:53,226
(FLATLINE CONTINUES)
618
00:33:54,082 --> 00:33:55,640
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
619
00:33:58,807 --> 00:34:00,288
Dr. Wolke.
620
00:34:01,218 --> 00:34:02,421
He's dead.
621
00:34:04,174 --> 00:34:05,468
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
622
00:34:12,584 --> 00:34:14,657
DR. LIM: Time of death,
7:23 p.m.
623
00:34:14,742 --> 00:34:15,743
(EKG SWITCHES OFF)
624
00:34:17,677 --> 00:34:19,235
(BREATH TREMBLING)
625
00:34:22,930 --> 00:34:25,087
Take as much time
as you need.
626
00:34:25,239 --> 00:34:26,782
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
627
00:35:05,345 --> 00:35:06,782
I was in love
with him.
628
00:35:07,146 --> 00:35:09,330
All those moments
I had,
629
00:35:09,415 --> 00:35:12,900
meeting at the gallery,
the conversations...
630
00:35:15,622 --> 00:35:17,821
I don't remember
any of them.
631
00:35:19,529 --> 00:35:21,025
But they were real.
632
00:35:22,992 --> 00:35:25,025
And they brought up
feelings.
633
00:35:27,166 --> 00:35:31,915
Ones I don't remember having
for a really long time.
634
00:35:40,714 --> 00:35:43,587
But all they made me
think of was you, Brendan.
635
00:35:44,851 --> 00:35:46,520
Hearing how I met Zane
just reminded me
636
00:35:46,653 --> 00:35:49,908
how you and I met
at Chelsey's party,
637
00:35:49,993 --> 00:35:52,540
and you showed up in
that ugly bomber jacket.
638
00:35:52,926 --> 00:35:55,479
And Zane taking me
to the hospital
639
00:35:55,564 --> 00:35:57,660
reminded me
how you nursed me for months
640
00:35:57,745 --> 00:35:59,806
when I broke
my femur in Aspen.
641
00:36:00,367 --> 00:36:02,071
And the whole time...
642
00:36:04,889 --> 00:36:06,605
I just couldn't
stop thinking about
643
00:36:06,690 --> 00:36:08,392
how much
I must have hurt you.
644
00:36:17,229 --> 00:36:18,407
And I...
645
00:36:19,716 --> 00:36:21,017
I don't know
646
00:36:21,799 --> 00:36:23,681
if you can
forgive me.
647
00:36:27,388 --> 00:36:29,259
But I love you.
648
00:36:37,730 --> 00:36:40,626
And I...
I want to come home.
649
00:36:51,838 --> 00:36:53,548
Well, you're wrong.
650
00:36:58,392 --> 00:37:00,689
That bomber jacket
was really cool.
651
00:37:02,784 --> 00:37:04,165
(LAUGHS)
652
00:37:04,673 --> 00:37:05,962
(SNIFFLES)
653
00:37:06,383 --> 00:37:08,017
(CRYING)
654
00:37:46,553 --> 00:37:47,795
He died.
655
00:37:51,742 --> 00:37:54,781
I tried
stepping back.
656
00:37:54,866 --> 00:37:58,233
I tried
brainstorming.
657
00:38:00,421 --> 00:38:01,842
And he died.
658
00:38:07,193 --> 00:38:10,879
I don't know what people
are thinking or feeling.
659
00:38:10,964 --> 00:38:13,428
I can't communicate
what I need.
660
00:38:14,116 --> 00:38:16,913
And more patients
will die.
661
00:38:21,148 --> 00:38:23,360
You don't think
your ASD had anything
662
00:38:23,445 --> 00:38:26,367
to do with your patient's death,
do you?
663
00:38:26,452 --> 00:38:27,936
Because it didn't.
664
00:38:28,147 --> 00:38:29,608
It did.
665
00:38:29,883 --> 00:38:33,756
Asher wasn't sure
about his abdominal exam.
666
00:38:34,582 --> 00:38:36,498
I should have known that.
667
00:38:36,756 --> 00:38:38,819
Shaun,
you're gonna do
668
00:38:39,526 --> 00:38:42,686
most things better
than anyone else,
669
00:38:43,290 --> 00:38:47,389
and there... are days
when you're gonna fail, like everyone else.
670
00:38:48,301 --> 00:38:50,702
Today might be
one of those days.
671
00:38:52,428 --> 00:38:53,928
So...
672
00:38:56,993 --> 00:38:58,663
What do you
do then?
673
00:39:01,380 --> 00:39:03,061
(SIGHS DEEPLY)
674
00:39:04,357 --> 00:39:06,116
You go home,
675
00:39:06,577 --> 00:39:08,670
you be with
the people you love.
676
00:39:10,644 --> 00:39:11,872
You take comfort in that,
677
00:39:11,957 --> 00:39:15,116
and then you wake up tomorrow
and start all over again.
678
00:39:25,304 --> 00:39:27,061
(SIGHS DEEPLY)
679
00:39:40,489 --> 00:39:43,108
You can go home.
680
00:39:44,803 --> 00:39:46,092
I just
681
00:39:48,957 --> 00:39:50,678
don't wanna be alone
right now.
682
00:40:31,805 --> 00:40:32,872
(SIGHS)
683
00:40:33,055 --> 00:40:35,041
I opened a Bumble account today.
684
00:40:35,126 --> 00:40:36,375
Mmm.
685
00:40:39,286 --> 00:40:41,883
I swiped right
three times today.
686
00:40:46,287 --> 00:40:48,766
Gronk's jersey didn't
have a tag in the back.
687
00:40:49,775 --> 00:40:51,367
It's symbolic.
688
00:40:52,759 --> 00:40:55,844
You have any idea how much
the real one will be worth one day?
689
00:40:55,960 --> 00:40:57,531
Fair enough.
690
00:41:01,668 --> 00:41:06,133
♪♪ Wastin' away again
in Margaritaville
691
00:41:07,100 --> 00:41:11,125
♪♪ Searchin' for
my lost shaker of salt
692
00:41:13,215 --> 00:41:18,399
♪♪ Some people claim that
there's a woman to blame
693
00:41:18,766 --> 00:41:20,844
♪♪ But I know
694
00:41:21,788 --> 00:41:24,688
- ♪♪ It's my own damn fault ♪♪
- ♪♪ Damn fault ♪♪
695
00:41:58,767 --> 00:42:00,861
I'm glad
you're here with me.
696
00:42:00,946 --> 00:42:02,439
So am I.